HAPPINESS

‌I always had this question, what exactly is Happiness. As like all human beings, I too crossed stages of happiness. When I received the news from my school “today is a holiday” I felt happy. For a major part in my life I had this special bond with cricket which I still have. Whenever I was on the field I felt happy. During my college days, “if I get my on duty form signed by my HOD” I felt happy. I have seen people who were addicted to alcohol and thought that it is the real happiness. Some went behind money and thought that it was real happiness. But whether all these were like permanent or temporary, comes the next question. With lot of confusions and assumptions about happiness life still went well. Untill all my perception about happiness got shattered one day. Happiness to this lady is all about sacrifice. Yes you heard me right. I met her in an orphanage serving food to the children. The happiness on her face told me stories. I was curious to know her in depth. She sacrificed her studies for her brother and sister. Sacrificed her childhood for her family. But all these time she felt happy. Her love to family made her do all this. But she didn’t stop with her family she showed it to the society as well. I asked her about her ambition with her pretty smile, she replied me “I want everyone in this world to be happy”. How on earth one can think like this I questioned myself. Hiding my thoughts I continued “that’s great and look around you everyone is smiling this is what you want right?”. Her answer struck me heavily, “indeed everyone is smiling but that doesn’t mean everyone is happy”. I had no answer to that. I stood up and walked away, she continued her routine. She doesn’t know how to hate people. There is no hatred in her heart. May be that’s why she is so happy. “We brought nothing to this world and we are not going to take back anything. The real feel of happiness comes when some one say thank you from their heart. Which means that you have done something that they never could have. You have this beautiful life try not to hate one. The real happiness is felt when you come to know that you are the reason behind someone else’s HAPPINESS.”
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Jerin Lavy R M

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LOVE

‌It was colder than normal day. At last I decided to walk back to my shelter. On the way back I saw this fair fat old man standing under the street light. His eyes were deep blue and was fully filled with love and kindness. His grey beard was fluffy and long which was groomed well and it matched perfectly with his cleanly trimmed bald head. Not even I went close to him but still I can feel the positivity and love oozing out of his body. Some thought hit me when I saw him. I wanted to talk to him badly. “but what if he ignore me, no he won’t” I questioned and answered to myself. With lot of if’s and but’s finally some how I gathered courage to go and talk to him. Suddenly I heard a “HELLO” which was gentle as well as bold in a deep voice. My heart stops for a moment. It was him not letting me to greet him his question came. “What are you doing this late here it is already half past one”. I don’t feel like I am seeing him for the first time instead I felt a connect. Answering to him “Usually when I am stressed I used to spend time alone analyzing what was the root cause for everything happening around me.” I still don’t understand why I told all those things to him. As soon as my answer was finished with no delay he asked about me, my family and friends. I started my lamentation, told my whole life every thing happened to me till the time I met him. All this time he was listening to me patiently. Not once he blinked his eyes. After all this time he then started his words. “Look child this world is a beautiful place. Don’t waste your time in analyzing things. Of course we all are humans and we do make mistakes. But you should never ask yourself why I did that or this. It’s human nature to find ourselves perfect. We can always easily find a way to come out from a problem by blaming others. It’s not about finding fault it’s about living your life. In the end all that human need is love and love only. The society is a reflection of your life. It’s in your hand that how people wants to look at you and what should they give you. You will get back what you give. It’s easy for us to put it in words or listen but in reality it’s little tough for us to accept our mistakes. But if we do it will help us and our surroundings. Be or at least try to be as positive. Show or at least try to show love to all. Make or at least try to make everyone around you happy.” Saying all this hesitantly he asked me “Am I boring you”. I shook my head did not utter a word. At last “Hey you young man don’t worry a bit about not having anyone to love you. I’m always there for you.” he finished. It was one of the best conversations I ever had in my life. Life is simple yet beautiful why should we complicate it with unwanted thoughts. You can always choose between love and hate. It’s your call to choose what you want from people. I took a decision to give unconditional love to each and everyone. Hey you! yes, “I am always there for you to LOVE YOU

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My PAPPA

‌Annual exams ends in two days. That time I have one whole month for summer vacation. As always I am very excited to go back to my Dad. Talking about him as like every child I too have the best. His smile was the only thing that comes to mind when I remember him. He’s an average middle class man. He can only see love and kindness around him. Nothing came close to drag him down. He showed ultimate patience that one can never imagine. That summer we had great time. Though he had only little amount of money. He never said no if I ask him to buy anything. Suddenly in the middle of the vacation his friend called him and said “I am coming to visit you with my family”. Without any hesitation he said yes. This time I was a little matured boy that I can understand the economic situation of my family. But somehow he managed everything with a smile. The day before we were about to leave. Mom asked “do we need to take everything on our head in a situation like this, you could have said NO to your friend”. As always with a smile he replied, “money is always important, but more than that people are important. It doesn’t matter how much you earned what really matters is what you earned”. At that point I don’t understand this but recently I faced a situation. Where I had to make a decision either to stay in my country or to go abroad. I remembered what my dad once said. Yes money matters a lot to human. But what’s more important is that the people around you. If you are left with no options then it’s ok. I learned a lot from my dad, his patience, love, kindness, smile etc. I can never match up with him but I’ll try to be an example as he wished. IN PURSUIT OF BEING A GOOD HUMAN.

The Odd One

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This was my fourth and final chance to win the zonal championship. For the past three years I’ve been playing this championship but never wanted it so badly. As like previous years we had a good team. We put in lots of effort to make sure that we are getting the trophy this time. We won the first two matches but failed to make it to the semifinals. It was the case like the previous year’s. So close yet so far. I was heart broken and was not going to the practices for two weeks. For many people two week is a not a problem. But for us it is a big deal. We have spent more time in the ground than in classes. We enjoyed every session that we had. One day myself and my friend sat down and talked about how to proceed further. While we were talking we realized that this many days we were under the pressure of winning and in the process forgot to enjoy the game. The next evening I went to the ground and saw the boys practicing. And observed that everyone is practicing with so much determination. Wondering what else we can do?There are so many things we can do, but the fact is we can’t control certain things in cricket. So I concentrated on what we can control. Yes batting and bowling can’t be controlled but not fielding. So we concentrated on fielding and fitness more. Even though we gave equal importance to the former two fielding was our first priority. Our sessions became more enjoyable. And our bonds even stronger. Suddenly I can feel that this team at least can give a tough competition to the opponents how strong they might be. And by the year end we had two fourth place and one winners trophy. Yes for me cricket is not just a game that I play. It is the best teacher I have got. With this it taught me that we can’t control all the things that happens in life. You can’t control birth and death. You can’t always support a person who is need of money. You can’t feed all the people who are hungry. There are certain things that we can control. You can be kind to everyone. It is obvious that all of us make mistakes, but we can make sure that our mistakes is not harming others in the process of making us happy. There are things that we don’t need anymore but it will be the only thing that someone else is waiting for. When you are in a community with people who ignore to help others and only caring for their own needs.This was my fourth and final chance to win the zonal championship. For the past three years I’ve been playing this championship but never wanted it so badly. As like previous years we had a good team. We put in lots of effort to make sure that we are getting the trophy this time. We won the first two matches but failed to make it to the semifinals. It was the case like the previous year’s. So close yet so far. I was heart broken and was not going to the practices for two weeks. For many people two week is a not a problem. But for us it is a big deal. We have spent more time in the ground than in classes. We enjoyed every session that we had. One day myself and my friend sat down and talked about how to proceed further. While we were talking we realized that this many days we were under the pressure of winning and in the process forgot to enjoy the game. The next evening I went to the ground and saw the boys practicing. And observed that everyone is practicing with so much determination. Wondering what else we can do?There are so many things we can do, but the fact is we can’t control certain things in cricket. So I concentrated on what we can control. Yes batting and bowling can’t be controlled but not fielding. So we concentrated on fielding and fitness more. Even though we gave equal importance to the former two fielding was our first priority. Our sessions became more enjoyable. And our bonds even stronger. Suddenly I can feel that this team at least can give a tough competition to the opponents how strong they might be. And by the year end we had two fourth place and one winners trophy. Yes for me cricket is not just a game that I play. It is the best teacher I have got. With this it taught me that we can’t control all the things that happens in life. You can’t control birth and death. You can’t always support a person who is need of money. You can’t feed all the people who are hungry. There are certain things that we can control. You can be kind to everyone. It is obvious that all of us make mistakes, but we can make sure that our mistakes is not harming others in the process of making us happy. There are things that we don’t need anymore but it will be the only thing that someone else is waiting for. When you are in a community with people who ignore to help others and only caring for their own needs. You can always break the proverb “BE A ROMAN IN ROME “. Feel proud to be AN ODD ONE.

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The YOU

That was the last day to pay exam fee. After a long wait I got the money from my father. Today my class teacher can’t scold me, I went happily to school. But my happiness doesn’t last long. My elder brother came in my way. He’s a strongly built boy, his appearance always scare me. Even my neighbors used to tease him that he was eating my share too, which actually happens. He asked for the money though I don’t want to give the money, my hand automatically does everything asked of me. My brother in a bold voice “don’t even utter a word to father about this”. Having no choice I nodded my head. I started walking towards school. Thinking how will my teacher treat me today.
what my father would do if he knew that I didn’t pay my fee. What if I tell the truth. How will my brother react. Everything happend in a blink of an eye. Left out from school, home and my village. I wanted to shout out to everyone I did nothing wrong. But seeing my brother standing in front my voice didn’t come out. They shipped me to work. There I had food once in a day. Days were hard and nights even harder to move, I had no idea what is happening in my life. One fine day a man came to me talked to me. I had never seen him but I felt like having a long time relation with him. I told everything that happened to me. At last I got one person to share my burden. I was so relieved he listened to me patiently and consoled me. After few hours he offered me dinner, I refused it hesitantly. Understanding me he smiled and said that he has another parcel and he will join me and took the other parcel from his bag. We started our dinner together, it was a long time ago when I had food this good. After a few minutes of pause he started his story, I couldn’t control my tears. I wondered how a person can live after taking this much. No one can live his cursed life except for him. I never seen or heard someone suffer this much. He gave me confidence that I too can make something out of my life. I went to my bed that night having lots of plan how I can get better. The next day I searched for him but I couldn’t find him anywhere. I enquired people about him. The guy who’s next to me told me that he’s the richest one in the village. And he has nothing to worry about. He can get whatever he wants. His life is the best a person can get in this world. ‌”Yes!!!! when you are a successful man, it seems like you are getting everything for granted. But only the person knows how hard he worked to get an opportunity to be there. Crossing frustration, shame, tears, humiliation, loss, loneliness, anger, guilt, jealous, lost opportunities, backstabs and many more. The conversation that I had with the person made me believe in hard work, dedication and determination. His words were ringing in my head, “Never underestimate you. You are here to succeed. Always work hard bcoz nothing can replace it, if you even fail you can say that you have at least tried. At the end the only person you have to answer and convince is YOU.

Human Colours

We were a group four friends studied in same college. We prefer to stay in a rented house rather than college hostel. Where we faced many problems but nothing came in the way of our happiness. When things were going so smoothly, then came the news. It’s the semester exams. Suddenly everyone in college seemed too busy and worried, which also infected us. Days passed like clouds, study holidays came and it was a long one but none of us went home, as we decided to have a group study. We even prepared timetables for what to study when. As the exam day were approaching rapidly, we started preparing seriously for the exam. We had only three days before the exam starts, the house lord came to our room. Though it was 11.30 in the morning all four were sleeping. Everyone is wondering why he is here, and realized we had debts in rent. With the tired eyes and rusty voice one of us asked, “what makes you visit us this early” . In a furious way he said “I want you all to be out of the house by evening“. His reply made us realize that we are not dreaming. It took an hour for us to think what to do next. We went to the landlord and pleaded for time. We even explained the situation that exams were approaching and we have no place to go. All our cries fell into the deaf ears of the landlord. With no other option left, we started calling our friends and asked for help after a few hours of struggle we received a call from one of our friend. And the news was, “there is a room for rent near my house, I talked to the owner he told you to come and talk to him in person” . It was already 4.30pm when we received the call from the friend. In a hurry we packed our dusty bags and left the house. We got into the bus and went to place which our friend told. Our friend is waiting for us in the bus stand. We had no idea what was coming from the friend. It was 9.00pm when we got down from the bus. The words came from the mouth of the friend broke our hearts and left us weeping in middle of the road. “The man who promised to give us shelter refused“. Tears came down like a pouring rain from each one of us. We had no idea what to do and where to go. We sat in the bus stand. Our friend told us to come with him. But we knew how he is staying with his family in his small house. “There is no place for him to even sleep and he is inviting us” I told myself and hugged him tightly. As we were sitting in the bus stand, sobbing. Suddenly a man came near to us and asked what happened to us. After listening to the story. He ignorantly, told us “I have a very small house and if you are OK you can use it“. That moment I realized how humans can be. That one day showed all human colours to me. The landlord who had no heart. The owner who never cared for others. Friend who had options to ignore us but still he cared for us. And a stranger who had a big heart.

Embrace Your Life

‌That week, it is my turn to go in second shift. I felt really happy as I finished my work after lot’s of struggle. That particular project made me feel like I’m the only person who is facing all the troubles that entire human lives should have faced. I am the representative for human sins and I have to bear all that God gives me. My office and room is separated by 25 minutes walk. At nights my walk is accompanied with songs from my playlist which I have for a long time, darkness that surrounds me and the street dogs which I fear the most. I was going home after finishing my hectic work. When I logged off my computer it was already 2 am. I came out of the office cursing many people. To rub salt to my wound it was raining heavily outside. I took my black umbrella from my bag and started walking. The journey seems a bit too long than other days. The noise of the rain hitting the umbrella was loud, there is no music as my phone is dead. Thoughts started creeping in my head I felt too low. Again I started cursing people and continued my walk. I never knew that this day will change my life. For the first time I noticed the slum people on the way. They have been there always but somehow my eyes refused to look them. I saw people of all ages the old, the grown up, the youth and even the children. None of them were sleeping. The water is running through their tents, not letting them to sleep. I could only see them. I went to my room, for the next 6 hours I was only thinking about them. That made me realize how blessed I am, to have a place to live, a cot to sleep and a blanket to cover me. What even hit me more is that the next day, when I was going to office my eyes keenly looked at those people. There was no worried faces even the children were smiling and playing. That moment I decided there is no reason for me to be sad and to blame others. I decided to embrace my life and be happy with what I have. That moment I decided to live my life to the fullest.